I’ve usedeven when apart of meknew I didn’treally want toThere areemotions I’velearned to shutdown insteadof feelingI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve felt like partof me is stilltrying to figureout how tomove forwardI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve wantedhelp at timesbut didn’t feelready or ableto ask for itI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tfeel likemyself at allI’ve feltemotionallyalone evenwhen I hadpeople aroundmeI’ve hadthoughts aboutusing that Ididn’t sharewith anyoneI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingI’ve feltdisconnectedfrom who I usedto be beforeeverythingchangedI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve used whenI wasemotionallyoverwhelmedand didn’t knowwhat else to doI’ve pulledaway frompeople whowere trying tosupport meI’ve foundmyselfrepeating thesame cycleeven when Iwanted outI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve struggledto be fullyhonest aboutthe depth ofmy useI’ve felt like Iwas survivinglife ratherthan actuallyliving itI’ve carriedthings from mypast that stillaffect how Ithink or feeltodayI’ve avoidedmemoriesbecause theystill carryemotionalweightI’ve used toescape feelingsthat felt toooverwhelmingto sit withI’ve missedearly warningsigns in myselfbefore thingsgot worseI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI’ve donewhile tryingto copeI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve minimizedmy situationjust to make itfeel moremanageableI’ve hademotions Ididn’t knowhow to copewith, so I shutdown insteadI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve hadmomentswhere Iquestioned myability to stay inrecoveryI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve isolatedmyself whenthings weregettingemotionallydifficultI’ve felt regretsoon afterusing but stillstruggled tostop the patternI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve used tochange howI felt aboutmyself in themomentI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve carriedshame aboutmy past thatI don’t easilytalk aboutI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingI’ve usedeven when apart of meknew I didn’treally want toThere areemotions I’velearned to shutdown insteadof feelingI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve felt like partof me is stilltrying to figureout how tomove forwardI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve wantedhelp at timesbut didn’t feelready or ableto ask for itI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tfeel likemyself at allI’ve feltemotionallyalone evenwhen I hadpeople aroundmeI’ve hadthoughts aboutusing that Ididn’t sharewith anyoneI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingI’ve feltdisconnectedfrom who I usedto be beforeeverythingchangedI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve used whenI wasemotionallyoverwhelmedand didn’t knowwhat else to doI’ve pulledaway frompeople whowere trying tosupport meI’ve foundmyselfrepeating thesame cycleeven when Iwanted outI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve struggledto be fullyhonest aboutthe depth ofmy useI’ve felt like Iwas survivinglife ratherthan actuallyliving itI’ve carriedthings from mypast that stillaffect how Ithink or feeltodayI’ve avoidedmemoriesbecause theystill carryemotionalweightI’ve used toescape feelingsthat felt toooverwhelmingto sit withI’ve missedearly warningsigns in myselfbefore thingsgot worseI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI’ve donewhile tryingto copeI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve minimizedmy situationjust to make itfeel moremanageableI’ve hademotions Ididn’t knowhow to copewith, so I shutdown insteadI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve hadmomentswhere Iquestioned myability to stay inrecoveryI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve isolatedmyself whenthings weregettingemotionallydifficultI’ve felt regretsoon afterusing but stillstruggled tostop the patternI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve used tochange howI felt aboutmyself in themomentI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve carriedshame aboutmy past thatI don’t easilytalk aboutI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually living

Substance Use - Call List

(Print) Use this randomly generated list as your call list when playing the game. Place some kind of mark (like an X, a checkmark, a dot, tally mark, etc) on each cell as you announce it, to keep track. You can also cut out each item, place them in a bag and pull words from the bag.


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  1. I-I’ve used even when a part of me knew I didn’t really want to
  2. B-There are emotions I’ve learned to shut down instead of feeling
  3. G-I’ve minimized the impact of my use when talking about it
  4. N-I’ve struggled to ask for help even when I needed it
  5. B-I’ve felt shame about who I became while using
  6. B-I’ve had moments where I felt completely disconnected from myself
  7. O-I’ve felt like part of me is still trying to figure out how to move forward
  8. N-I’ve isolated myself when things started getting hard
  9. O-I’ve wanted help at times but didn’t feel ready or able to ask for it
  10. G-I’ve had moments where I didn’t feel like myself at all
  11. N-I’ve felt emotionally alone even when I had people around me
  12. G-I’ve had thoughts about using that I didn’t share with anyone
  13. O-I’ve felt regret immediately after using
  14. N-I’ve felt disconnected from who I used to be before everything changed
  15. G-I’ve felt like I didn’t fully recognize myself at times in my life
  16. G-I’ve used when I was emotionally overwhelmed and didn’t know what else to do
  17. G-I’ve pulled away from people who were trying to support me
  18. O-I’ve found myself repeating the same cycle even when I wanted out
  19. N-I’ve pushed away support when I felt overwhelmed
  20. O-I’ve struggled with believing I can actually change
  21. N-I’ve ignored early warning signs in myself before relapse
  22. I-I’ve used to shut off thoughts or memories that felt overwhelming
  23. I-I’ve used even when part of me didn’t want to
  24. O-I’ve struggled to be fully honest about the depth of my use
  25. N-I’ve felt like I was surviving life rather than actually living it
  26. G-I’ve carried things from my past that still affect how I think or feel today
  27. O-I’ve avoided memories because they still carry emotional weight
  28. I-I’ve used to escape feelings that felt too overwhelming to sit with
  29. N-I’ve missed early warning signs in myself before things got worse
  30. B-I’ve felt guilt about things I’ve done while trying to cope
  31. I-I’ve judged myself harshly for my past choices
  32. B-I’ve avoided thinking about parts of my past because it hurts too much
  33. I-I’ve minimized my situation just to make it feel more manageable
  34. B-I’ve had emotions I didn’t know how to cope with, so I shut down instead
  35. B-I’ve used substances to escape emotional pain I didn’t know how to sit with
  36. O-I’ve used to feel “normal” or okay for a short time
  37. B-I’ve had moments where I questioned my ability to stay in recovery
  38. O-I’ve felt like I was repeating a cycle I couldn’t break
  39. G-I’ve used when I felt emotionally overwhelmed
  40. N-I’ve isolated myself when things were getting emotionally difficult
  41. I-I’ve felt regret soon after using but still struggled to stop the pattern
  42. G-I’ve avoided being fully honest about how bad things got
  43. I-I’ve felt emotionally numb at times and didn’t understand why
  44. I-I’ve used to change how I felt about myself in the moment
  45. O-I’ve had moments where I didn’t like who I was becoming
  46. B-I’ve carried shame about my past that I don’t easily talk about
  47. B-I’ve felt alone even when people were physically around me
  48. G-I’ve felt guilt about things I don’t fully talk about
  49. I-I’ve felt like I was stuck in survival mode instead of actually living