I’ve hademotions Ididn’t knowhow to copewith, so I shutdown insteadI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve usedeven when apart of meknew I didn’treally want toI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve felt regretsoon afterusing but stillstruggled tostop the patternI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve used whenI wasemotionallyoverwhelmedand didn’t knowwhat else to doI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve feltemotionallyalone evenwhen I hadpeople aroundmeI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve avoidedmemoriesbecause theystill carryemotionalweightI’ve missedearly warningsigns in myselfbefore thingsgot worseI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tfeel likemyself at allI’ve foundmyselfrepeating thesame cycleeven when Iwanted outI’ve pulledaway frompeople whowere trying tosupport meThere areemotions I’velearned to shutdown insteadof feelingI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve minimizedmy situationjust to make itfeel moremanageableI’ve hadthoughts aboutusing that Ididn’t sharewith anyoneI’ve carriedthings from mypast that stillaffect how Ithink or feeltodayI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve isolatedmyself whenthings weregettingemotionallydifficultI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve felt like Iwas survivinglife ratherthan actuallyliving itI’ve hadmomentswhere Iquestioned myability to stay inrecoveryI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingI’ve feltdisconnectedfrom who I usedto be beforeeverythingchangedI’ve used toescape feelingsthat felt toooverwhelmingto sit withI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI’ve donewhile tryingto copeI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingI’ve struggledto be fullyhonest aboutthe depth ofmy useI’ve wantedhelp at timesbut didn’t feelready or ableto ask for itI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve used tochange howI felt aboutmyself in themomentI’ve felt like partof me is stilltrying to figureout how tomove forwardI’ve carriedshame aboutmy past thatI don’t easilytalk aboutI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve hademotions Ididn’t knowhow to copewith, so I shutdown insteadI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve usedeven when apart of meknew I didn’treally want toI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve felt regretsoon afterusing but stillstruggled tostop the patternI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve used whenI wasemotionallyoverwhelmedand didn’t knowwhat else to doI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve feltemotionallyalone evenwhen I hadpeople aroundmeI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve avoidedmemoriesbecause theystill carryemotionalweightI’ve missedearly warningsigns in myselfbefore thingsgot worseI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tfeel likemyself at allI’ve foundmyselfrepeating thesame cycleeven when Iwanted outI’ve pulledaway frompeople whowere trying tosupport meThere areemotions I’velearned to shutdown insteadof feelingI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve minimizedmy situationjust to make itfeel moremanageableI’ve hadthoughts aboutusing that Ididn’t sharewith anyoneI’ve carriedthings from mypast that stillaffect how Ithink or feeltodayI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve isolatedmyself whenthings weregettingemotionallydifficultI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve felt like Iwas survivinglife ratherthan actuallyliving itI’ve hadmomentswhere Iquestioned myability to stay inrecoveryI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingI’ve feltdisconnectedfrom who I usedto be beforeeverythingchangedI’ve used toescape feelingsthat felt toooverwhelmingto sit withI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI’ve donewhile tryingto copeI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingI’ve struggledto be fullyhonest aboutthe depth ofmy useI’ve wantedhelp at timesbut didn’t feelready or ableto ask for itI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve used tochange howI felt aboutmyself in themomentI’ve felt like partof me is stilltrying to figureout how tomove forwardI’ve carriedshame aboutmy past thatI don’t easilytalk aboutI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile using

Substance Use - Call List

(Print) Use this randomly generated list as your call list when playing the game. Place some kind of mark (like an X, a checkmark, a dot, tally mark, etc) on each cell as you announce it, to keep track. You can also cut out each item, place them in a bag and pull words from the bag.


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  1. B-I’ve had emotions I didn’t know how to cope with, so I shut down instead
  2. N-I’ve pushed away support when I felt overwhelmed
  3. I-I’ve used even when a part of me knew I didn’t really want to
  4. B-I’ve avoided thinking about parts of my past because it hurts too much
  5. I-I’ve felt regret soon after using but still struggled to stop the pattern
  6. O-I’ve had moments where I didn’t like who I was becoming
  7. G-I’ve used when I was emotionally overwhelmed and didn’t know what else to do
  8. O-I’ve used to feel “normal” or okay for a short time
  9. N-I’ve felt emotionally alone even when I had people around me
  10. I-I’ve used even when part of me didn’t want to
  11. O-I’ve avoided memories because they still carry emotional weight
  12. N-I’ve missed early warning signs in myself before things got worse
  13. O-I’ve felt regret immediately after using
  14. B-I’ve used substances to escape emotional pain I didn’t know how to sit with
  15. G-I’ve had moments where I didn’t feel like myself at all
  16. O-I’ve found myself repeating the same cycle even when I wanted out
  17. G-I’ve pulled away from people who were trying to support me
  18. B-There are emotions I’ve learned to shut down instead of feeling
  19. I-I’ve judged myself harshly for my past choices
  20. G-I’ve used when I felt emotionally overwhelmed
  21. I-I’ve minimized my situation just to make it feel more manageable
  22. G-I’ve had thoughts about using that I didn’t share with anyone
  23. G-I’ve carried things from my past that still affect how I think or feel today
  24. B-I’ve had moments where I felt completely disconnected from myself
  25. N-I’ve isolated myself when things were getting emotionally difficult
  26. N-I’ve struggled to ask for help even when I needed it
  27. N-I’ve felt like I was surviving life rather than actually living it
  28. B-I’ve had moments where I questioned my ability to stay in recovery
  29. I-I’ve felt like I was stuck in survival mode instead of actually living
  30. N-I’ve felt disconnected from who I used to be before everything changed
  31. I-I’ve used to escape feelings that felt too overwhelming to sit with
  32. G-I’ve felt guilt about things I don’t fully talk about
  33. G-I’ve felt like I didn’t fully recognize myself at times in my life
  34. G-I’ve minimized the impact of my use when talking about it
  35. B-I’ve felt guilt about things I’ve done while trying to cope
  36. I-I’ve felt emotionally numb at times and didn’t understand why
  37. B-I’ve felt alone even when people were physically around me
  38. N-I’ve ignored early warning signs in myself before relapse
  39. O-I’ve felt like I was repeating a cycle I couldn’t break
  40. O-I’ve struggled with believing I can actually change
  41. I-I’ve used to shut off thoughts or memories that felt overwhelming
  42. O-I’ve struggled to be fully honest about the depth of my use
  43. O-I’ve wanted help at times but didn’t feel ready or able to ask for it
  44. G-I’ve avoided being fully honest about how bad things got
  45. N-I’ve isolated myself when things started getting hard
  46. I-I’ve used to change how I felt about myself in the moment
  47. O-I’ve felt like part of me is still trying to figure out how to move forward
  48. B-I’ve carried shame about my past that I don’t easily talk about
  49. B-I’ve felt shame about who I became while using