I’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingI’ve isolatedmyself whenthings weregettingemotionallydifficultI’ve foundmyselfrepeating thesame cycleeven when Iwanted outI’ve feltemotionallyalone evenwhen I hadpeople aroundmeI’ve felt like partof me is stilltrying to figureout how tomove forwardI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’ve usedeven when apart of meknew I didn’treally want toI’ve missedearly warningsigns in myselfbefore thingsgot worseI’ve hademotions Ididn’t knowhow to copewith, so I shutdown insteadI’ve minimizedmy situationjust to make itfeel moremanageableI’ve used tochange howI felt aboutmyself in themomentI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tfeel likemyself at allI’ve avoidedmemoriesbecause theystill carryemotionalweightI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingThere areemotions I’velearned to shutdown insteadof feelingI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve used toescape feelingsthat felt toooverwhelmingto sit withI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve struggledto be fullyhonest aboutthe depth ofmy useI’ve felt regretsoon afterusing but stillstruggled tostop the patternI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve pulledaway frompeople whowere trying tosupport meI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve wantedhelp at timesbut didn’t feelready or ableto ask for itI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve feltdisconnectedfrom who I usedto be beforeeverythingchangedI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve hadthoughts aboutusing that Ididn’t sharewith anyoneI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve carriedshame aboutmy past thatI don’t easilytalk aboutI’ve hadmomentswhere Iquestioned myability to stay inrecoveryI’ve carriedthings from mypast that stillaffect how Ithink or feeltodayI’ve used whenI wasemotionallyoverwhelmedand didn’t knowwhat else to doI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI’ve donewhile tryingto copeI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve felt like Iwas survivinglife ratherthan actuallyliving itI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingI’ve isolatedmyself whenthings weregettingemotionallydifficultI’ve foundmyselfrepeating thesame cycleeven when Iwanted outI’ve feltemotionallyalone evenwhen I hadpeople aroundmeI’ve felt like partof me is stilltrying to figureout how tomove forwardI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’ve usedeven when apart of meknew I didn’treally want toI’ve missedearly warningsigns in myselfbefore thingsgot worseI’ve hademotions Ididn’t knowhow to copewith, so I shutdown insteadI’ve minimizedmy situationjust to make itfeel moremanageableI’ve used tochange howI felt aboutmyself in themomentI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tfeel likemyself at allI’ve avoidedmemoriesbecause theystill carryemotionalweightI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingThere areemotions I’velearned to shutdown insteadof feelingI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve used toescape feelingsthat felt toooverwhelmingto sit withI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve struggledto be fullyhonest aboutthe depth ofmy useI’ve felt regretsoon afterusing but stillstruggled tostop the patternI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve pulledaway frompeople whowere trying tosupport meI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve wantedhelp at timesbut didn’t feelready or ableto ask for itI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve feltdisconnectedfrom who I usedto be beforeeverythingchangedI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve hadthoughts aboutusing that Ididn’t sharewith anyoneI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve carriedshame aboutmy past thatI don’t easilytalk aboutI’ve hadmomentswhere Iquestioned myability to stay inrecoveryI’ve carriedthings from mypast that stillaffect how Ithink or feeltodayI’ve used whenI wasemotionallyoverwhelmedand didn’t knowwhat else to doI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI’ve donewhile tryingto copeI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve felt like Iwas survivinglife ratherthan actuallyliving itI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hard

Substance Use - Call List

(Print) Use this randomly generated list as your call list when playing the game. Place some kind of mark (like an X, a checkmark, a dot, tally mark, etc) on each cell as you announce it, to keep track. You can also cut out each item, place them in a bag and pull words from the bag.


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  1. N-I’ve ignored early warning signs in myself before relapse
  2. I-I’ve felt like I was stuck in survival mode instead of actually living
  3. N-I’ve isolated myself when things were getting emotionally difficult
  4. O-I’ve found myself repeating the same cycle even when I wanted out
  5. N-I’ve felt emotionally alone even when I had people around me
  6. O-I’ve felt like part of me is still trying to figure out how to move forward
  7. O-I’ve felt like I was repeating a cycle I couldn’t break
  8. I-I’ve felt emotionally numb at times and didn’t understand why
  9. G-I’ve felt guilt about things I don’t fully talk about
  10. O-I’ve used to feel “normal” or okay for a short time
  11. G-I’ve minimized the impact of my use when talking about it
  12. I-I’ve used even when a part of me knew I didn’t really want to
  13. N-I’ve missed early warning signs in myself before things got worse
  14. B-I’ve had emotions I didn’t know how to cope with, so I shut down instead
  15. I-I’ve minimized my situation just to make it feel more manageable
  16. I-I’ve used to change how I felt about myself in the moment
  17. O-I’ve struggled with believing I can actually change
  18. G-I’ve had moments where I didn’t feel like myself at all
  19. O-I’ve avoided memories because they still carry emotional weight
  20. I-I’ve used to shut off thoughts or memories that felt overwhelming
  21. B-There are emotions I’ve learned to shut down instead of feeling
  22. B-I’ve avoided thinking about parts of my past because it hurts too much
  23. I-I’ve used to escape feelings that felt too overwhelming to sit with
  24. I-I’ve judged myself harshly for my past choices
  25. O-I’ve struggled to be fully honest about the depth of my use
  26. I-I’ve felt regret soon after using but still struggled to stop the pattern
  27. G-I’ve avoided being fully honest about how bad things got
  28. G-I’ve pulled away from people who were trying to support me
  29. B-I’ve felt alone even when people were physically around me
  30. O-I’ve wanted help at times but didn’t feel ready or able to ask for it
  31. B-I’ve had moments where I felt completely disconnected from myself
  32. N-I’ve felt disconnected from who I used to be before everything changed
  33. N-I’ve struggled to ask for help even when I needed it
  34. G-I’ve had thoughts about using that I didn’t share with anyone
  35. G-I’ve felt like I didn’t fully recognize myself at times in my life
  36. B-I’ve carried shame about my past that I don’t easily talk about
  37. B-I’ve had moments where I questioned my ability to stay in recovery
  38. G-I’ve carried things from my past that still affect how I think or feel today
  39. G-I’ve used when I was emotionally overwhelmed and didn’t know what else to do
  40. B-I’ve used substances to escape emotional pain I didn’t know how to sit with
  41. B-I’ve felt guilt about things I’ve done while trying to cope
  42. O-I’ve had moments where I didn’t like who I was becoming
  43. O-I’ve felt regret immediately after using
  44. N-I’ve pushed away support when I felt overwhelmed
  45. B-I’ve felt shame about who I became while using
  46. N-I’ve felt like I was surviving life rather than actually living it
  47. I-I’ve used even when part of me didn’t want to
  48. G-I’ve used when I felt emotionally overwhelmed
  49. N-I’ve isolated myself when things started getting hard