I’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve felt regretsoon afterusing but stillstruggled tostop the patternI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’ve used toescape feelingsthat felt toooverwhelmingto sit withI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve isolatedmyself whenthings weregettingemotionallydifficultI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve hademotions Ididn’t knowhow to copewith, so I shutdown insteadI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve feltdisconnectedfrom who I usedto be beforeeverythingchangedI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve pulledaway frompeople whowere trying tosupport meI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingThere areemotions I’velearned to shutdown insteadof feelingI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve felt like Iwas survivinglife ratherthan actuallyliving itI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tfeel likemyself at allI’ve wantedhelp at timesbut didn’t feelready or ableto ask for itI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’ve hadthoughts aboutusing that Ididn’t sharewith anyoneI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingI’ve foundmyselfrepeating thesame cycleeven when Iwanted outI’ve missedearly warningsigns in myselfbefore thingsgot worseI’ve struggledto be fullyhonest aboutthe depth ofmy useI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI’ve donewhile tryingto copeI’ve avoidedmemoriesbecause theystill carryemotionalweightI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve usedeven when apart of meknew I didn’treally want toI’ve carriedshame aboutmy past thatI don’t easilytalk aboutI’ve feltemotionallyalone evenwhen I hadpeople aroundmeI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve felt like partof me is stilltrying to figureout how tomove forwardI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve used tochange howI felt aboutmyself in themomentI’ve used whenI wasemotionallyoverwhelmedand didn’t knowwhat else to doI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve minimizedmy situationjust to make itfeel moremanageableI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve hadmomentswhere Iquestioned myability to stay inrecoveryI’ve carriedthings from mypast that stillaffect how Ithink or feeltodayI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve felt regretsoon afterusing but stillstruggled tostop the patternI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’ve used toescape feelingsthat felt toooverwhelmingto sit withI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve isolatedmyself whenthings weregettingemotionallydifficultI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve hademotions Ididn’t knowhow to copewith, so I shutdown insteadI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve feltdisconnectedfrom who I usedto be beforeeverythingchangedI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve pulledaway frompeople whowere trying tosupport meI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingThere areemotions I’velearned to shutdown insteadof feelingI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve felt like Iwas survivinglife ratherthan actuallyliving itI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tfeel likemyself at allI’ve wantedhelp at timesbut didn’t feelready or ableto ask for itI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’ve hadthoughts aboutusing that Ididn’t sharewith anyoneI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingI’ve foundmyselfrepeating thesame cycleeven when Iwanted outI’ve missedearly warningsigns in myselfbefore thingsgot worseI’ve struggledto be fullyhonest aboutthe depth ofmy useI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI’ve donewhile tryingto copeI’ve avoidedmemoriesbecause theystill carryemotionalweightI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve usedeven when apart of meknew I didn’treally want toI’ve carriedshame aboutmy past thatI don’t easilytalk aboutI’ve feltemotionallyalone evenwhen I hadpeople aroundmeI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve felt like partof me is stilltrying to figureout how tomove forwardI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve used tochange howI felt aboutmyself in themomentI’ve used whenI wasemotionallyoverwhelmedand didn’t knowwhat else to doI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve minimizedmy situationjust to make itfeel moremanageableI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve hadmomentswhere Iquestioned myability to stay inrecoveryI’ve carriedthings from mypast that stillaffect how Ithink or feeltodayI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk about

Substance Use - Call List

(Print) Use this randomly generated list as your call list when playing the game. Place some kind of mark (like an X, a checkmark, a dot, tally mark, etc) on each cell as you announce it, to keep track. You can also cut out each item, place them in a bag and pull words from the bag.


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  1. I-I’ve felt emotionally numb at times and didn’t understand why
  2. I-I’ve felt regret soon after using but still struggled to stop the pattern
  3. B-I’ve used substances to escape emotional pain I didn’t know how to sit with
  4. I-I’ve used to escape feelings that felt too overwhelming to sit with
  5. O-I’ve struggled with believing I can actually change
  6. N-I’ve isolated myself when things were getting emotionally difficult
  7. I-I’ve used even when part of me didn’t want to
  8. B-I’ve had emotions I didn’t know how to cope with, so I shut down instead
  9. I-I’ve judged myself harshly for my past choices
  10. N-I’ve felt disconnected from who I used to be before everything changed
  11. B-I’ve had moments where I felt completely disconnected from myself
  12. B-I’ve felt alone even when people were physically around me
  13. G-I’ve pulled away from people who were trying to support me
  14. O-I’ve felt regret immediately after using
  15. B-There are emotions I’ve learned to shut down instead of feeling
  16. N-I’ve isolated myself when things started getting hard
  17. N-I’ve pushed away support when I felt overwhelmed
  18. N-I’ve felt like I was surviving life rather than actually living it
  19. G-I’ve had moments where I didn’t feel like myself at all
  20. O-I’ve wanted help at times but didn’t feel ready or able to ask for it
  21. G-I’ve minimized the impact of my use when talking about it
  22. G-I’ve had thoughts about using that I didn’t share with anyone
  23. G-I’ve used when I felt emotionally overwhelmed
  24. I-I’ve used to shut off thoughts or memories that felt overwhelming
  25. O-I’ve found myself repeating the same cycle even when I wanted out
  26. N-I’ve missed early warning signs in myself before things got worse
  27. O-I’ve struggled to be fully honest about the depth of my use
  28. B-I’ve felt guilt about things I’ve done while trying to cope
  29. O-I’ve avoided memories because they still carry emotional weight
  30. I-I’ve felt like I was stuck in survival mode instead of actually living
  31. O-I’ve felt like I was repeating a cycle I couldn’t break
  32. I-I’ve used even when a part of me knew I didn’t really want to
  33. B-I’ve carried shame about my past that I don’t easily talk about
  34. N-I’ve felt emotionally alone even when I had people around me
  35. O-I’ve used to feel “normal” or okay for a short time
  36. O-I’ve had moments where I didn’t like who I was becoming
  37. O-I’ve felt like part of me is still trying to figure out how to move forward
  38. N-I’ve struggled to ask for help even when I needed it
  39. I-I’ve used to change how I felt about myself in the moment
  40. G-I’ve used when I was emotionally overwhelmed and didn’t know what else to do
  41. B-I’ve felt shame about who I became while using
  42. I-I’ve minimized my situation just to make it feel more manageable
  43. G-I’ve avoided being fully honest about how bad things got
  44. G-I’ve felt like I didn’t fully recognize myself at times in my life
  45. B-I’ve had moments where I questioned my ability to stay in recovery
  46. G-I’ve carried things from my past that still affect how I think or feel today
  47. N-I’ve ignored early warning signs in myself before relapse
  48. B-I’ve avoided thinking about parts of my past because it hurts too much
  49. G-I’ve felt guilt about things I don’t fully talk about