I’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve minimizedmy situationjust to make itfeel moremanageableI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve used whenI wasemotionallyoverwhelmedand didn’t knowwhat else to doI’ve carriedshame aboutmy past thatI don’t easilytalk aboutI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve avoidedmemoriesbecause theystill carryemotionalweightI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve hadmomentswhere Iquestioned myability to stay inrecoveryI’ve hademotions Ididn’t knowhow to copewith, so I shutdown insteadI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve feltdisconnectedfrom who I usedto be beforeeverythingchangedI’ve struggledto be fullyhonest aboutthe depth ofmy useI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve felt like Iwas survivinglife ratherthan actuallyliving itI’ve felt regretsoon afterusing but stillstruggled tostop the patternI’ve foundmyselfrepeating thesame cycleeven when Iwanted outI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tfeel likemyself at allI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve hadthoughts aboutusing that Ididn’t sharewith anyoneI’ve feltemotionallyalone evenwhen I hadpeople aroundmeI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve felt like partof me is stilltrying to figureout how tomove forwardI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI’ve donewhile tryingto copeI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingThere areemotions I’velearned to shutdown insteadof feelingI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve usedeven when apart of meknew I didn’treally want toI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve wantedhelp at timesbut didn’t feelready or ableto ask for itI’ve isolatedmyself whenthings weregettingemotionallydifficultI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve missedearly warningsigns in myselfbefore thingsgot worseI’ve used toescape feelingsthat felt toooverwhelmingto sit withI’ve pulledaway frompeople whowere trying tosupport meI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve carriedthings from mypast that stillaffect how Ithink or feeltodayI’ve used tochange howI felt aboutmyself in themomentI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve minimizedmy situationjust to make itfeel moremanageableI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve used whenI wasemotionallyoverwhelmedand didn’t knowwhat else to doI’ve carriedshame aboutmy past thatI don’t easilytalk aboutI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve avoidedmemoriesbecause theystill carryemotionalweightI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve hadmomentswhere Iquestioned myability to stay inrecoveryI’ve hademotions Ididn’t knowhow to copewith, so I shutdown insteadI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve feltdisconnectedfrom who I usedto be beforeeverythingchangedI’ve struggledto be fullyhonest aboutthe depth ofmy useI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve felt like Iwas survivinglife ratherthan actuallyliving itI’ve felt regretsoon afterusing but stillstruggled tostop the patternI’ve foundmyselfrepeating thesame cycleeven when Iwanted outI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tfeel likemyself at allI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve hadthoughts aboutusing that Ididn’t sharewith anyoneI’ve feltemotionallyalone evenwhen I hadpeople aroundmeI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve felt like partof me is stilltrying to figureout how tomove forwardI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI’ve donewhile tryingto copeI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingThere areemotions I’velearned to shutdown insteadof feelingI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve usedeven when apart of meknew I didn’treally want toI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve wantedhelp at timesbut didn’t feelready or ableto ask for itI’ve isolatedmyself whenthings weregettingemotionallydifficultI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve missedearly warningsigns in myselfbefore thingsgot worseI’ve used toescape feelingsthat felt toooverwhelmingto sit withI’ve pulledaway frompeople whowere trying tosupport meI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve carriedthings from mypast that stillaffect how Ithink or feeltodayI’ve used tochange howI felt aboutmyself in themomentI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings got

Substance Use - Call List

(Print) Use this randomly generated list as your call list when playing the game. Place some kind of mark (like an X, a checkmark, a dot, tally mark, etc) on each cell as you announce it, to keep track. You can also cut out each item, place them in a bag and pull words from the bag.


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  1. O-I’ve felt regret immediately after using
  2. G-I’ve felt like I didn’t fully recognize myself at times in my life
  3. G-I’ve felt guilt about things I don’t fully talk about
  4. O-I’ve had moments where I didn’t like who I was becoming
  5. I-I’ve minimized my situation just to make it feel more manageable
  6. G-I’ve minimized the impact of my use when talking about it
  7. O-I’ve felt like I was repeating a cycle I couldn’t break
  8. B-I’ve felt shame about who I became while using
  9. N-I’ve isolated myself when things started getting hard
  10. G-I’ve used when I felt emotionally overwhelmed
  11. G-I’ve used when I was emotionally overwhelmed and didn’t know what else to do
  12. B-I’ve carried shame about my past that I don’t easily talk about
  13. N-I’ve struggled to ask for help even when I needed it
  14. O-I’ve avoided memories because they still carry emotional weight
  15. O-I’ve struggled with believing I can actually change
  16. B-I’ve had moments where I questioned my ability to stay in recovery
  17. B-I’ve had emotions I didn’t know how to cope with, so I shut down instead
  18. B-I’ve had moments where I felt completely disconnected from myself
  19. B-I’ve felt alone even when people were physically around me
  20. N-I’ve felt disconnected from who I used to be before everything changed
  21. O-I’ve struggled to be fully honest about the depth of my use
  22. I-I’ve judged myself harshly for my past choices
  23. N-I’ve felt like I was surviving life rather than actually living it
  24. I-I’ve felt regret soon after using but still struggled to stop the pattern
  25. O-I’ve found myself repeating the same cycle even when I wanted out
  26. G-I’ve had moments where I didn’t feel like myself at all
  27. I-I’ve used even when part of me didn’t want to
  28. G-I’ve had thoughts about using that I didn’t share with anyone
  29. N-I’ve felt emotionally alone even when I had people around me
  30. O-I’ve used to feel “normal” or okay for a short time
  31. O-I’ve felt like part of me is still trying to figure out how to move forward
  32. B-I’ve felt guilt about things I’ve done while trying to cope
  33. I-I’ve felt like I was stuck in survival mode instead of actually living
  34. B-There are emotions I’ve learned to shut down instead of feeling
  35. I-I’ve felt emotionally numb at times and didn’t understand why
  36. I-I’ve used even when a part of me knew I didn’t really want to
  37. I-I’ve used to shut off thoughts or memories that felt overwhelming
  38. N-I’ve pushed away support when I felt overwhelmed
  39. O-I’ve wanted help at times but didn’t feel ready or able to ask for it
  40. N-I’ve isolated myself when things were getting emotionally difficult
  41. B-I’ve used substances to escape emotional pain I didn’t know how to sit with
  42. B-I’ve avoided thinking about parts of my past because it hurts too much
  43. N-I’ve missed early warning signs in myself before things got worse
  44. I-I’ve used to escape feelings that felt too overwhelming to sit with
  45. G-I’ve pulled away from people who were trying to support me
  46. N-I’ve ignored early warning signs in myself before relapse
  47. G-I’ve carried things from my past that still affect how I think or feel today
  48. I-I’ve used to change how I felt about myself in the moment
  49. G-I’ve avoided being fully honest about how bad things got