I’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve foundmyselfrepeating thesame cycleeven when Iwanted outI’ve felt regretsoon afterusing but stillstruggled tostop the patternThere areemotions I’velearned to shutdown insteadof feelingI’ve hadmomentswhere Iquestioned myability to stay inrecoveryI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve carriedthings from mypast that stillaffect how Ithink or feeltodayI’ve missedearly warningsigns in myselfbefore thingsgot worseI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingI’ve pulledaway frompeople whowere trying tosupport meI’ve hadthoughts aboutusing that Ididn’t sharewith anyoneI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve minimizedmy situationjust to make itfeel moremanageableI’ve used toescape feelingsthat felt toooverwhelmingto sit withI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI’ve donewhile tryingto copeI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve feltdisconnectedfrom who I usedto be beforeeverythingchangedI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve wantedhelp at timesbut didn’t feelready or ableto ask for itI’ve used tochange howI felt aboutmyself in themomentI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve avoidedmemoriesbecause theystill carryemotionalweightI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve struggledto be fullyhonest aboutthe depth ofmy useI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve used whenI wasemotionallyoverwhelmedand didn’t knowwhat else to doI’ve felt like partof me is stilltrying to figureout how tomove forwardI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingI’ve hademotions Ididn’t knowhow to copewith, so I shutdown insteadI’ve usedeven when apart of meknew I didn’treally want toI’ve feltemotionallyalone evenwhen I hadpeople aroundmeI’ve felt like Iwas survivinglife ratherthan actuallyliving itI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tfeel likemyself at allI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve carriedshame aboutmy past thatI don’t easilytalk aboutI’ve isolatedmyself whenthings weregettingemotionallydifficultI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve foundmyselfrepeating thesame cycleeven when Iwanted outI’ve felt regretsoon afterusing but stillstruggled tostop the patternThere areemotions I’velearned to shutdown insteadof feelingI’ve hadmomentswhere Iquestioned myability to stay inrecoveryI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve carriedthings from mypast that stillaffect how Ithink or feeltodayI’ve missedearly warningsigns in myselfbefore thingsgot worseI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingI’ve pulledaway frompeople whowere trying tosupport meI’ve hadthoughts aboutusing that Ididn’t sharewith anyoneI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve minimizedmy situationjust to make itfeel moremanageableI’ve used toescape feelingsthat felt toooverwhelmingto sit withI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI’ve donewhile tryingto copeI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve feltdisconnectedfrom who I usedto be beforeeverythingchangedI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve wantedhelp at timesbut didn’t feelready or ableto ask for itI’ve used tochange howI felt aboutmyself in themomentI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve avoidedmemoriesbecause theystill carryemotionalweightI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve struggledto be fullyhonest aboutthe depth ofmy useI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve used whenI wasemotionallyoverwhelmedand didn’t knowwhat else to doI’ve felt like partof me is stilltrying to figureout how tomove forwardI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingI’ve hademotions Ididn’t knowhow to copewith, so I shutdown insteadI’ve usedeven when apart of meknew I didn’treally want toI’ve feltemotionallyalone evenwhen I hadpeople aroundmeI’ve felt like Iwas survivinglife ratherthan actuallyliving itI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tfeel likemyself at allI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve carriedshame aboutmy past thatI don’t easilytalk aboutI’ve isolatedmyself whenthings weregettingemotionallydifficult

Substance Use - Call List

(Print) Use this randomly generated list as your call list when playing the game. Place some kind of mark (like an X, a checkmark, a dot, tally mark, etc) on each cell as you announce it, to keep track. You can also cut out each item, place them in a bag and pull words from the bag.


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  1. O-I’ve used to feel “normal” or okay for a short time
  2. O-I’ve had moments where I didn’t like who I was becoming
  3. B-I’ve avoided thinking about parts of my past because it hurts too much
  4. O-I’ve found myself repeating the same cycle even when I wanted out
  5. I-I’ve felt regret soon after using but still struggled to stop the pattern
  6. B-There are emotions I’ve learned to shut down instead of feeling
  7. B-I’ve had moments where I questioned my ability to stay in recovery
  8. B-I’ve felt alone even when people were physically around me
  9. G-I’ve carried things from my past that still affect how I think or feel today
  10. N-I’ve missed early warning signs in myself before things got worse
  11. O-I’ve felt regret immediately after using
  12. G-I’ve pulled away from people who were trying to support me
  13. G-I’ve had thoughts about using that I didn’t share with anyone
  14. I-I’ve used even when part of me didn’t want to
  15. G-I’ve used when I felt emotionally overwhelmed
  16. I-I’ve minimized my situation just to make it feel more manageable
  17. I-I’ve used to escape feelings that felt too overwhelming to sit with
  18. G-I’ve minimized the impact of my use when talking about it
  19. G-I’ve felt like I didn’t fully recognize myself at times in my life
  20. G-I’ve felt guilt about things I don’t fully talk about
  21. B-I’ve used substances to escape emotional pain I didn’t know how to sit with
  22. B-I’ve felt guilt about things I’ve done while trying to cope
  23. I-I’ve judged myself harshly for my past choices
  24. N-I’ve felt disconnected from who I used to be before everything changed
  25. I-I’ve felt emotionally numb at times and didn’t understand why
  26. O-I’ve struggled with believing I can actually change
  27. N-I’ve isolated myself when things started getting hard
  28. N-I’ve ignored early warning signs in myself before relapse
  29. N-I’ve pushed away support when I felt overwhelmed
  30. O-I’ve felt like I was repeating a cycle I couldn’t break
  31. O-I’ve wanted help at times but didn’t feel ready or able to ask for it
  32. I-I’ve used to change how I felt about myself in the moment
  33. N-I’ve struggled to ask for help even when I needed it
  34. O-I’ve avoided memories because they still carry emotional weight
  35. B-I’ve had moments where I felt completely disconnected from myself
  36. O-I’ve struggled to be fully honest about the depth of my use
  37. G-I’ve avoided being fully honest about how bad things got
  38. G-I’ve used when I was emotionally overwhelmed and didn’t know what else to do
  39. O-I’ve felt like part of me is still trying to figure out how to move forward
  40. I-I’ve used to shut off thoughts or memories that felt overwhelming
  41. B-I’ve had emotions I didn’t know how to cope with, so I shut down instead
  42. I-I’ve used even when a part of me knew I didn’t really want to
  43. N-I’ve felt emotionally alone even when I had people around me
  44. N-I’ve felt like I was surviving life rather than actually living it
  45. I-I’ve felt like I was stuck in survival mode instead of actually living
  46. G-I’ve had moments where I didn’t feel like myself at all
  47. B-I’ve felt shame about who I became while using
  48. B-I’ve carried shame about my past that I don’t easily talk about
  49. N-I’ve isolated myself when things were getting emotionally difficult