dry humorabout healthstatus tohide bigfeelingstensedmuscles& difficultybreathingfeeling likeI need to crybut beingunable toincreasein shakingandstimmingfantasizingsomeonesaving a pastor currentversion of meloss ofthirst andappetiteawarenessfear ofbeingalone bymyselfwanting toscream, hitbaseballs,punch walls, orslam punchingbagswatching tvto drown outthe noise inmy headover-explainingmy reasoningand choicesto peopleforgetting tokeep upwith mymedicationsquestioningthe odds of afulfilling lifewhen I can'tread subtextwondering atwhat point Iwill ceasebeing able tocopepanic attacks&chaotic sleepschedulesrelivingpastabandonmentsreplaying all ofmy memoriessearching forwhere it/I wentwrongexpectingabandonmentfrom friendswithoutreasonpanic textingpeople b/c Idon't knowhow toprocessapologizingconstantlynightmareswhere I ambeing abusedbut I ampowerlesswantingaffirmationto replacewhat I havestopped givingmyselfguilt for notbeing able tomind read oranticipatehead, neck,& joint painwith severefatiguewanting tobuyso manythings to fillthe voiddry humorabout healthstatus tohide bigfeelingstensedmuscles& difficultybreathingfeeling likeI need to crybut beingunable toincreasein shakingandstimmingfantasizingsomeonesaving a pastor currentversion of meloss ofthirst andappetiteawarenessfear ofbeingalone bymyselfwanting toscream, hitbaseballs,punch walls, orslam punchingbagswatching tvto drown outthe noise inmy headover-explainingmy reasoningand choicesto peopleforgetting tokeep upwith mymedicationsquestioningthe odds of afulfilling lifewhen I can'tread subtextwondering atwhat point Iwill ceasebeing able tocopepanic attacks&chaotic sleepschedulesrelivingpastabandonmentsreplaying all ofmy memoriessearching forwhere it/I wentwrongexpectingabandonmentfrom friendswithoutreasonpanic textingpeople b/c Idon't knowhow toprocessapologizingconstantlynightmareswhere I ambeing abusedbut I ampowerlesswantingaffirmationto replacewhat I havestopped givingmyselfguilt for notbeing able tomind read oranticipatehead, neck,& joint painwith severefatiguewanting tobuyso manythings to fillthe void

Amy's Spiral Awareness Bingo - Call List

(Print) Use this randomly generated list as your call list when playing the game. There is no need to say the BINGO column name. Place some kind of mark (like an X, a checkmark, a dot, tally mark, etc) on each cell as you announce it, to keep track. You can also cut out each item, place them in a bag and pull words from the bag.


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  1. dry humor about health status to hide big feelings
  2. tensed muscles & difficulty breathing
  3. feeling like I need to cry but being unable to
  4. increase in shaking and stimming
  5. fantasizing someone saving a past or current version of me
  6. loss of thirst and appetite awareness
  7. fear of being alone by myself
  8. wanting to scream, hit baseballs, punch walls, or slam punching bags
  9. watching tv to drown out the noise in my head
  10. over-explaining my reasoning and choices to people
  11. forgetting to keep up with my medications
  12. questioning the odds of a fulfilling life when I can't read subtext
  13. wondering at what point I will cease being able to cope
  14. panic attacks & chaotic sleep schedules
  15. reliving past abandonments
  16. replaying all of my memories searching for where it/I went wrong
  17. expecting abandonment from friends without reason
  18. panic texting people b/c I don't know how to process
  19. apologizing constantly
  20. nightmares where I am being abused but I am powerless
  21. wanting affirmation to replace what I have stopped giving myself
  22. guilt for not being able to mind read or anticipate
  23. head, neck, & joint pain with severe fatigue
  24. wanting to buy so many things to fill the void