forgetting tokeep upwith mymedicationswanting toscream, hitbaseballs,punch walls, orslam punchingbagsnightmareswhere I ambeing abusedbut I ampowerlessfeeling likeI need to crybut beingunable toreplaying all ofmy memoriessearching forwhere it/I wentwrongwondering atwhat point Iwill ceasebeing able tocopeover-explainingmy reasoningand choicesto peoplefear ofbeingalone bymyselfrelivingpastabandonmentsincreasein shakingandstimmingwantingaffirmationto replacewhat I havestopped givingmyselfpanic textingpeople b/c Idon't knowhow toprocesswanting tobuyso manythings to fillthe voiddry humorabout healthstatus tohide bigfeelingsguilt for notbeing able tomind read oranticipatewatching tvto drown outthe noise inmy headexpectingabandonmentfrom friendswithoutreasonfantasizingsomeonesaving a pastor currentversion of mepanic attacks&chaotic sleepschedulestensedmuscles& difficultybreathingquestioningthe odds of afulfilling lifewhen I can'tread subtextloss ofthirst andappetiteawarenesshead, neck,& joint painwith severefatigueapologizingconstantlyforgetting tokeep upwith mymedicationswanting toscream, hitbaseballs,punch walls, orslam punchingbagsnightmareswhere I ambeing abusedbut I ampowerlessfeeling likeI need to crybut beingunable toreplaying all ofmy memoriessearching forwhere it/I wentwrongwondering atwhat point Iwill ceasebeing able tocopeover-explainingmy reasoningand choicesto peoplefear ofbeingalone bymyselfrelivingpastabandonmentsincreasein shakingandstimmingwantingaffirmationto replacewhat I havestopped givingmyselfpanic textingpeople b/c Idon't knowhow toprocesswanting tobuyso manythings to fillthe voiddry humorabout healthstatus tohide bigfeelingsguilt for notbeing able tomind read oranticipatewatching tvto drown outthe noise inmy headexpectingabandonmentfrom friendswithoutreasonfantasizingsomeonesaving a pastor currentversion of mepanic attacks&chaotic sleepschedulestensedmuscles& difficultybreathingquestioningthe odds of afulfilling lifewhen I can'tread subtextloss ofthirst andappetiteawarenesshead, neck,& joint painwith severefatigueapologizingconstantly

Amy's Spiral Awareness Bingo - Call List

(Print) Use this randomly generated list as your call list when playing the game. There is no need to say the BINGO column name. Place some kind of mark (like an X, a checkmark, a dot, tally mark, etc) on each cell as you announce it, to keep track. You can also cut out each item, place them in a bag and pull words from the bag.


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  1. forgetting to keep up with my medications
  2. wanting to scream, hit baseballs, punch walls, or slam punching bags
  3. nightmares where I am being abused but I am powerless
  4. feeling like I need to cry but being unable to
  5. replaying all of my memories searching for where it/I went wrong
  6. wondering at what point I will cease being able to cope
  7. over-explaining my reasoning and choices to people
  8. fear of being alone by myself
  9. reliving past abandonments
  10. increase in shaking and stimming
  11. wanting affirmation to replace what I have stopped giving myself
  12. panic texting people b/c I don't know how to process
  13. wanting to buy so many things to fill the void
  14. dry humor about health status to hide big feelings
  15. guilt for not being able to mind read or anticipate
  16. watching tv to drown out the noise in my head
  17. expecting abandonment from friends without reason
  18. fantasizing someone saving a past or current version of me
  19. panic attacks & chaotic sleep schedules
  20. tensed muscles & difficulty breathing
  21. questioning the odds of a fulfilling life when I can't read subtext
  22. loss of thirst and appetite awareness
  23. head, neck, & joint pain with severe fatigue
  24. apologizing constantly