loss ofthirst andappetiteawarenesswondering atwhat point Iwill ceasebeing able tocopeover-explainingmy reasoningand choicesto peoplewantingaffirmationto replacewhat I havestopped givingmyselfrelivingpastabandonmentsfeeling likeI need to crybut beingunable towatching tvto drown outthe noise inmy headpanic attacks&chaotic sleepschedulesfear ofbeingalone bymyselftensedmuscles& difficultybreathingforgetting tokeep upwith mymedicationswanting tobuyso manythings to fillthe voiddry humorabout healthstatus tohide bigfeelingsquestioningthe odds of afulfilling lifewhen I can'tread subtextpanic textingpeople b/c Idon't knowhow toprocessguilt for notbeing able tomind read oranticipatewanting toscream, hitbaseballs,punch walls, orslam punchingbagshead, neck,& joint painwith severefatigueexpectingabandonmentfrom friendswithoutreasonincreasein shakingandstimmingnightmareswhere I ambeing abusedbut I ampowerlessreplaying all ofmy memoriessearching forwhere it/I wentwrongapologizingconstantlyfantasizingsomeonesaving a pastor currentversion of meloss ofthirst andappetiteawarenesswondering atwhat point Iwill ceasebeing able tocopeover-explainingmy reasoningand choicesto peoplewantingaffirmationto replacewhat I havestopped givingmyselfrelivingpastabandonmentsfeeling likeI need to crybut beingunable towatching tvto drown outthe noise inmy headpanic attacks&chaotic sleepschedulesfear ofbeingalone bymyselftensedmuscles& difficultybreathingforgetting tokeep upwith mymedicationswanting tobuyso manythings to fillthe voiddry humorabout healthstatus tohide bigfeelingsquestioningthe odds of afulfilling lifewhen I can'tread subtextpanic textingpeople b/c Idon't knowhow toprocessguilt for notbeing able tomind read oranticipatewanting toscream, hitbaseballs,punch walls, orslam punchingbagshead, neck,& joint painwith severefatigueexpectingabandonmentfrom friendswithoutreasonincreasein shakingandstimmingnightmareswhere I ambeing abusedbut I ampowerlessreplaying all ofmy memoriessearching forwhere it/I wentwrongapologizingconstantlyfantasizingsomeonesaving a pastor currentversion of me

Amy's Spiral Awareness Bingo - Call List

(Print) Use this randomly generated list as your call list when playing the game. There is no need to say the BINGO column name. Place some kind of mark (like an X, a checkmark, a dot, tally mark, etc) on each cell as you announce it, to keep track. You can also cut out each item, place them in a bag and pull words from the bag.


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  1. loss of thirst and appetite awareness
  2. wondering at what point I will cease being able to cope
  3. over-explaining my reasoning and choices to people
  4. wanting affirmation to replace what I have stopped giving myself
  5. reliving past abandonments
  6. feeling like I need to cry but being unable to
  7. watching tv to drown out the noise in my head
  8. panic attacks & chaotic sleep schedules
  9. fear of being alone by myself
  10. tensed muscles & difficulty breathing
  11. forgetting to keep up with my medications
  12. wanting to buy so many things to fill the void
  13. dry humor about health status to hide big feelings
  14. questioning the odds of a fulfilling life when I can't read subtext
  15. panic texting people b/c I don't know how to process
  16. guilt for not being able to mind read or anticipate
  17. wanting to scream, hit baseballs, punch walls, or slam punching bags
  18. head, neck, & joint pain with severe fatigue
  19. expecting abandonment from friends without reason
  20. increase in shaking and stimming
  21. nightmares where I am being abused but I am powerless
  22. replaying all of my memories searching for where it/I went wrong
  23. apologizing constantly
  24. fantasizing someone saving a past or current version of me