I’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand why

Substance Use - Call List

(Print) Use this randomly generated list as your call list when playing the game. Place some kind of mark (like an X, a checkmark, a dot, tally mark, etc) on each cell as you announce it, to keep track. You can also cut out each item, place them in a bag and pull words from the bag.


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N
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O
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O
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B
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I
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B
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N
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O
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N
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O
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G
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G
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G
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I
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I
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O
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G
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I
  1. N-I’ve isolated myself when things started getting hard
  2. B-I’ve felt alone even when people were physically around me
  3. O-I’ve used to feel “normal” or okay for a short time
  4. O-I’ve felt like I was repeating a cycle I couldn’t break
  5. B-I’ve felt shame about who I became while using
  6. I-I’ve used to shut off thoughts or memories that felt overwhelming
  7. B-I’ve had moments where I felt completely disconnected from myself
  8. N-I’ve ignored early warning signs in myself before relapse
  9. O-I’ve felt regret immediately after using
  10. N-I’ve pushed away support when I felt overwhelmed
  11. O-I’ve had moments where I didn’t like who I was becoming
  12. G-I’ve used when I felt emotionally overwhelmed
  13. G-I’ve minimized the impact of my use when talking about it
  14. G-I’ve felt guilt about things I don’t fully talk about
  15. I-I’ve used even when part of me didn’t want to
  16. I-I’ve judged myself harshly for my past choices
  17. O-I’ve struggled with believing I can actually change
  18. G-I’ve avoided being fully honest about how bad things got
  19. G-I’ve felt like I didn’t fully recognize myself at times in my life
  20. B-I’ve used substances to escape emotional pain I didn’t know how to sit with
  21. I-I’ve felt like I was stuck in survival mode instead of actually living
  22. N-I’ve struggled to ask for help even when I needed it
  23. B-I’ve avoided thinking about parts of my past because it hurts too much
  24. I-I’ve felt emotionally numb at times and didn’t understand why