I’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelming

Substance Use - Call List

(Print) Use this randomly generated list as your call list when playing the game. Place some kind of mark (like an X, a checkmark, a dot, tally mark, etc) on each cell as you announce it, to keep track. You can also cut out each item, place them in a bag and pull words from the bag.


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  1. I-I’ve judged myself harshly for my past choices
  2. B-I’ve used substances to escape emotional pain I didn’t know how to sit with
  3. N-I’ve struggled to ask for help even when I needed it
  4. O-I’ve struggled with believing I can actually change
  5. I-I’ve felt emotionally numb at times and didn’t understand why
  6. G-I’ve used when I felt emotionally overwhelmed
  7. N-I’ve isolated myself when things started getting hard
  8. B-I’ve felt shame about who I became while using
  9. O-I’ve had moments where I didn’t like who I was becoming
  10. O-I’ve used to feel “normal” or okay for a short time
  11. B-I’ve had moments where I felt completely disconnected from myself
  12. G-I’ve felt like I didn’t fully recognize myself at times in my life
  13. B-I’ve felt alone even when people were physically around me
  14. O-I’ve felt regret immediately after using
  15. N-I’ve pushed away support when I felt overwhelmed
  16. I-I’ve felt like I was stuck in survival mode instead of actually living
  17. B-I’ve avoided thinking about parts of my past because it hurts too much
  18. N-I’ve ignored early warning signs in myself before relapse
  19. O-I’ve felt like I was repeating a cycle I couldn’t break
  20. I-I’ve used even when part of me didn’t want to
  21. G-I’ve felt guilt about things I don’t fully talk about
  22. G-I’ve minimized the impact of my use when talking about it
  23. G-I’ve avoided being fully honest about how bad things got
  24. I-I’ve used to shut off thoughts or memories that felt overwhelming