I’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort timeI’ve felt like Iwas repeatinga cycle Icouldn’t breakI’ve felt aloneeven whenpeople werephysicallyaround meI’ve isolatedmyself whenthingsstartedgetting hardI’ve feltregretimmediatelyafter usingI’ve feltemotionallynumb at timesand didn’tunderstand whyI’ve avoidedthinking aboutparts of mypast because ithurts too muchI’ve pushedaway supportwhen I feltoverwhelmedI’ve ignoredearly warningsigns inmyself beforerelapseI’ve minimizedthe impact ofmy use whentalking aboutitI’ve felt like Iwas stuck insurvival modeinstead ofactually livingI’ve hadmomentswhere I feltcompletelydisconnectedfrom myselfI’ve usedeven whenpart of medidn’t wanttoI’ve feltshame aboutwho Ibecamewhile usingI’ve felt guiltabout thingsI don’t fullytalk aboutI’vestruggled toask for helpeven when Ineeded itI’ve struggledwith believingI can actuallychangeI’ve usedwhen I feltemotionallyoverwhelmedI’ve used toshut offthoughts ormemories thatfeltoverwhelmingI’ve hadmomentswhere I didn’tlike who I wasbecomingI’ve avoidedbeing fullyhonest abouthow badthings gotI’ve judgedmyselfharshly formy pastchoicesI’ve usedsubstances toescapeemotional pain Ididn’t knowhow to sit withI’ve felt like Ididn’t fullyrecognizemyself at timesin my lifeI’ve used tofeel “normal”or okay for ashort time

Substance Use - Call List

(Print) Use this randomly generated list as your call list when playing the game. Place some kind of mark (like an X, a checkmark, a dot, tally mark, etc) on each cell as you announce it, to keep track. You can also cut out each item, place them in a bag and pull words from the bag.


1
O
2
B
3
N
4
O
5
I
6
B
7
N
8
N
9
G
10
I
11
B
12
I
13
B
14
G
15
N
16
O
17
G
18
I
19
O
20
G
21
I
22
B
23
G
24
O
  1. O-I’ve felt like I was repeating a cycle I couldn’t break
  2. B-I’ve felt alone even when people were physically around me
  3. N-I’ve isolated myself when things started getting hard
  4. O-I’ve felt regret immediately after using
  5. I-I’ve felt emotionally numb at times and didn’t understand why
  6. B-I’ve avoided thinking about parts of my past because it hurts too much
  7. N-I’ve pushed away support when I felt overwhelmed
  8. N-I’ve ignored early warning signs in myself before relapse
  9. G-I’ve minimized the impact of my use when talking about it
  10. I-I’ve felt like I was stuck in survival mode instead of actually living
  11. B-I’ve had moments where I felt completely disconnected from myself
  12. I-I’ve used even when part of me didn’t want to
  13. B-I’ve felt shame about who I became while using
  14. G-I’ve felt guilt about things I don’t fully talk about
  15. N-I’ve struggled to ask for help even when I needed it
  16. O-I’ve struggled with believing I can actually change
  17. G-I’ve used when I felt emotionally overwhelmed
  18. I-I’ve used to shut off thoughts or memories that felt overwhelming
  19. O-I’ve had moments where I didn’t like who I was becoming
  20. G-I’ve avoided being fully honest about how bad things got
  21. I-I’ve judged myself harshly for my past choices
  22. B-I’ve used substances to escape emotional pain I didn’t know how to sit with
  23. G-I’ve felt like I didn’t fully recognize myself at times in my life
  24. O-I’ve used to feel “normal” or okay for a short time